so to rephrase everything i explained in this thread to make it shorter i guess is , i found out about myself that i cant use to remember such past events my memories are too weak from the incidents that i went through\, it was pain , suffering and tourcher , that i went through and even my mom forgot about it , she doesnt even know about it . dad when he was alive did help me through it .
what happen was in short , i use to live in this apartment complex named prince complex , in the early 90ies , that kid knew how to drive a car he used to open our car an drive it outside the building premises , i told my dad about him we caught him red handed , dad slapped him continuously knowing he wont do it again .
that sob busted my head open from the left upper side of my head causing me to go unconscious and blood was all leaking from my head , some kids told in the building to my dad that your kid on the ground with the blood all on the floor coming out of his head , dad came took me to jinnah , where i came to reality . bad news was he didnt went for the lost blood that i lost in the process , giving me serious problems in school for example head getting to much exhausted while trying to learn which already got me c's in school . dad didnt took legal actions against them . i was severely having issues in school with learning and focusing plus attention .
after i recovered from all of this again categorically these assholes were planning bad , what these assholes did to me they destroyed my life .
injected me with illegal substances maybe heroin by hitting with bats on my head and making me unconscious while giving me those injections .
then it all started to fall apart , for me hallucinations , paranoi , fear , panic attacks mental disorders were kicking in while each time they were hitting me
on my head with the cricket bat , i kid you not multiple they hit me with the bat on my head to make me go unconscious , while they were done with this
i use to go to them because it got me addicted at the age of 6 or 7 i told them to inject me with this substance they said we're done with you again
they hit me with the bat several times to make me unconscious and this time as soon as i woke u they twisted my leg , i screamed for help no one cared about it
i was getting addicted drowsy and what not ., i was hallucinating seeing big angels coming on to me ...
i told dad htey sexually harassed me and injected needles into me , then dad took action and lodged an fir in probably clifton or frere town police station .
i told the police officer everyone who was involved and justice was served .
but my life was ruined i got heroin injected into my blood stream , secondly neurologically issues as dyslexia and what not epilepsy , paralysis and maybe i am suffering from dementia because i have literally no memories , cant remember , no skills , clumsy af .
dad took me to this neuropsychiatric DR m iqbal afridi , he was just asking questions about where they injected me and other than that i just barely remember .
ct scan and mri was done on me , i ripped them apart .
then i had contracted TB through a baby sitter and anemia .
no lies , i effin cant take this anymore .
i am going with an mri this or next week to find a good neurologist because afridi is not helpful i urged him that i had a traumatic brain injury , he was like nothing nothing . wow seriously , i am going for a neurologist .
i am self medicating myself some from this doctor some by myself for mood disorder and anti depressants , i checked online they're pretty safe even in the long run .
thats my story a factual one .
i dont hate anyone i am not a bad person , its just my disorder and illnesses that makes me do it .
thank god i am not mentally disabled or handicapped , just minor issues like cognitive impairment , dyslexia (learning difficulties) and dysgraphia ( bad hand writing)
and probably adhd .
i hope everyone understands my childhood and dreams adulthood is ruined , i have nothing against anyone , sorry if i ever offended anyone here or anywhere in irl .
edit( this is how i got into psychosis mania bipolar and schizophrenia , i didnt inherit it through my genes and became unstable the illegal substance did that ) thanks for understanding .
dont do illegal or legal drugs thankyou .